Started writing again and it felt good.... ^_^

But before I finish all of that...I need to buy new bras. I have had the underwire fall out of not 1 or 2 bras this week--no that would be way too easy. Nope. 6 of them fell apart. SIX!!!!!!

Grumble grumble grumble. Now to go look for sizes they don't sell... I'd be fine with it if I looked anything like the numbers on my tag suggests.

Oh! I started rewatching xxxHOLiC! And after that I will finally finish xxxHOLiC Kei and the new OVA thingies!

Oh wow. I figured I would get back on here since I've been gone for about two years! It might do me some good mental health wise too. Not taking classes this summer and not having a job has made me go a bit stircrazy. On top of the crazy that was there to begin with. Right now, my contact with people kind of approaches 1 person a day. How has everybody been?

I have started writing again. I have also started artwork again. Hopefully I will be working on Topsy Turvy 12...which isn't nearly as terrible as I thought it was for the past couple years--which is why it was never finished. Who knows if I still have readers...and who cares? Lol! I'm gonna finish the damn thing...I mean I wanna know how it ends. ^_^ (as of yet I have absolutely NO idea what the ending is going to be like! TT has had the least planning of any work I've ever worked on.)

And I have a tablet practice piece that I am working on for my artwork...the pairing Jinana/Argilla from the video game Digital Devil Saga. Yes...if the boys are to play with each other...the girls have to be allowed too. Grrrr...fickle brain.

I interviewed for a new job today. I would be part of a laboratory that does massive scale industrial fermentation and creation of biofuels. In short, if I get this job, I would get paid a ridiculous amount of money(for a student) to shove barrels full of potatoes into a giant tube and clean said tubes if they get gummed up by potato sludge. And my shift would be 4PM-midnight...perfect for a night owl like me.

<3 Good to finally post again. Lets try and keep this regular now.

Sometimes I really wonder about my mental state being affected by too much science. I learn way too many little nifty words that the general population does not know, and yet they give me the strangest pleasure that they exist.

My personal favorite of today comes directly out of my psychology and biology of sexuality class. Yay for lordosis.

Lordosis- The presentation act of mammals named for the inverse arching of the back as a sexual response to being mounted for intromission. May be exhibited by male or female mammals, although it is most common in females.

I find it creeping into my thoughts, and it's kind of annoying. Like, I'm reading my usual yaoi daily fix and I'm reading Sex Therapist. As soon as I see therapist-san crawling across the floor in the chapter art brain says...oooh! look! lordosis.

Or I look at my biochemistry readings and go...may lordosis of my brain make the grades hurt less. (Biochem is hatesex. And not even the fun kind of noncon where you get anything out of it)

Anyhow. May lordosis enrich your vocabulary as much as it has mine.

God damn I have read too much science for a day. I still have more >.

This was just too unbelievably awesome....

The asian import/sword shop near where I live has started to carry swords from anime and videogames. And the nice...and might I add attractive...men let me play with all of the weaponry.

Here is me with Sephiroth's sword. Damn that felt good to handle.



Although you can see the chinese halberd in the corner, up against the window, that I have my eye on as well. As soon as I don't have to live on campus, it will be mine.

Well, anyways, back to biochemistry. I have three exams this week. Eeeewwwww. And probably a funeral.

Just thought I would share.

Hello everyone!

I know I haven't posted anything in a while. This will hopefully be changing soon. I finally have some inspiration for things.

First up...Topsy Turvy 12 is almost finished. I am trying to balance writing it with writing some term papers. Sometimes I just can't stare at a computer screen that long. @.@ Oh. And be prepared for the strangest author's note ever created. Welcome to the land of weird.

As far as inspiration goes...I have also begun my InuYasha tarot deck for real. I plan to do all of the Major and Minor Arcana. I have the aces all sketched out, they will be inked and colored soon. The two of pentacles and the knight of swords are also in the works as well. I thought that I had promised myself to work on the cards in order...but I can't make my brain do it. Here is my first submission. It is also on my deviantart account.




My first installment of my tarot project: STRENGTH

What is this card?
Strength is the eighth card of the major arcana. The usual depiction of the card shows a young woman calmly shutting the jaws of a lion with her bare hands.

The card symbolizes inner strength, patience, control of passion (the inner beast), and seizing one's own destiny. It. indicates willpower overcoming adversity. Love over hate. Spiritual power surpassing material power.

Why did I choose this interpretation?
Rin and Sesshomaru were the obvious choice to me for this card. He provided her with life, unfailingly loyal protection, and the best sense of companionship he could ever give to anyone. However, I believe that she singlehandedly made him into a dynamic character. She opens his heart and eyes, allowing him to feel the power and honor of defending the weak and helpless. Only when he fights for her is he able to grow in strength, learning tenseiga's ultimate attack. Just as his father wanted him to learn compassion rather than hatred, he discovers, albeit slowly and begrudgingly at first, that only pure understanding of the world around him will allow him grow in strength, not mindless fighting and brutal conquest. He is her hero, just as she is his secret pride. Regardless of whether you shamelessly root for Sess/AdultRin or if you like to see them as a father and daughter, you cannot say that Rin and Sesshomaru are not devoted to one another at the spiritual level.

Yes, I do know Sess is A LOT bigger in his other form. And that he would be giant and three-legged. *giggles* Poor fluffy. I just liked the concept.

Hopefully I will only get better and better with this!

WHERE THE FUCK IS MY MUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE TIME TO WRITE...BUT NO FUCKING MUSE!!!!!!!

!@%*&!@

Soooo...umm any tips for catching muses? TT is just stuck in a rut. I have no idea what to do with a certain scene.

Grrrrrrrrrrr.

Perhaps it will be better tomorrow.

*storms off*

Finally...back at MSU.

Oh how I have missed it. My house that is no longer my home drove me insane for a little while. I mean, holiday breaks are supposed to be a time where all of your friends come back home so you can finally see them again and catch up, while you spend time with your family. Unfortunately, my parents moved last year to an area of the country that is 1300 miles away from my most recent "home"...and having a family that has a grand total of 3 people, including myself, I felt very isolated. Yes my aunt came to visit, and my boyfriend and his family came to visit, but playing hostess has never appealed to me in the least bit. I like to make my own way in the world, nothing more, nothing less.

And then my relationship with my significant other of three years went sour...I'm sure you guys know how distance changes everything. Every time I saw him was like meeting a new person all over again, but he just never understood that. Ah well. It is time for me to be free again anyhow. I'm just one of those people who works hard to cultivate relationships with people, so even if things don't exactly work out, I hang onto it until I know for sure that the sparks can't be rekindled. Usually by that time I am an emotional sink hole, but I think I pulled myself out quicker this time then ever before.

In fact, I am kind of excited about getting back out there again. It is amazing to feel the electricity behind someone's flirtatious glance, without feeling guilty if I return it. It is liberating not to feel as if I am disappointing somebody far far away that I never see because I am having a happy thought and choosing not sharing it with him, simply due to the fact that it just wouldn't mean as much to him as it does to me. It is exciting to feel the touch of another person without wondering if it is wrong to wish for an even stronger more intimate connection. It is also a relief that if I accidentally show a deeper amount of caring towards someone than I had originally intended, I don't have to lie and cover it up saying, 'well actually, there is one person who means a little more to me, I just bide my time with you.'

Is it weird that I just broke up but can't wait to fall in love all over again? I love the mental-spiritual connection that happens when you find your personal complement. Just sometimes the petty things get in the way and the bond just can't get reforged. I want to be a better person and try not to let such petty things destroy my connection with anyone ever again. Hopefully next time I will succeed, but if not, it just means I am one step closer to becoming myself in its true and best form.

I do not know who the next one will be. Perhaps I have not met them yet. Possibly they are my most bitter enemy. Maybe they live right next door directly under my nose. I do not know if they are male or female, in love with another, or from a far corner of the earth. I am just filled with hope, joy, and guided by just a touch of destiny.

To all of you...I am sorry if I sound sappy, naive, or vain in this post. Today I am truly happy, even as I read boring texts about stuffy old dead scientists and dry neuroscience articles. No matter what I must do here, the difficulty or stupidity of it matters not to me. I am finally where I have always belonged and I have all of you to thank for it.

I found this a little entertaining. Try it if you dare.

Is it a little bit strange that (though I was too stupid to act upon it) the first man I ever deeply loved was born on the 1st and (though I was too stupid to realize it at the time) the first woman I ever deeply loved was born on the 19th?!?! I have officially had my mind blown for the night. Dear sweet mother of fucktard monkeys!

Your Birthdate: November 10

You don't just believe in love at first sight - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

Ok. Sleep. Now! No more memes!

I love you all!

Ha! Guess what! The queen of yaoi has written two shoujo-ai fics in 24 hours. *shivers* I think my brain is going to explode. I really want to work on my yaoi fics, but i guess the girls that pair up in my head want some too.

Now, my favorite Inuyasha shoujo-ai couple...Rin/Kanna. I know. I know. I have something wrong with my head. But hey, I'm already seeing a psychiatrist. Help is on its way, lol.

( Someone By Russanya (VixenArgentum) Rating K+ )

Anyways...hopefully that will free my brain enough for some more yaoi. Truly, sometimes I hate not caring about the orientation of my pairs. Shipping anyone with anything seriously drives me insane sometimes. I have like nooooo focus half the time. *sigh*

Anyways...I need sleep. I have to pick up my boyfriend at the airport tomorrow. That will be...interesting to say the least. Night!

Today I finally got the guts to look at my grades, and guess what?

I PASSED BIOCHEMISTRY!!!!!!!!! Take that Hoogstraten and your fucking plant supremacy!!!! I WIN I WIN I WIN I WIN I WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN!!!!!

Ok. I feel lots better now. This is going to be a great year!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope that this year is much better than the last one for all of you. Best wishes to all of you.

In the mean time...a sign of the apocalypse has descended upon us. I have written a shoujo-ai fic. I'm supposed to be a yaoi girl damnit! But yeah...this couple stole my heart the moment they walked onscreen.

This fic is from the anime Loveless. If you wish to read (its short) and you have not seen Loveless this will make it understandable. NO SPOILERS. I MADE SURE

( Loveless Background )
Now that that is cleared up, this is a story about the Female Zero pair Yamato/Kouya. I am quite fond of it. Zero is a type of figher and sacrifice that has been engineered not to feel pain. In the series, Yamato, being of the first prototype, has the particular quality that her name will not stay carved into her skin. It disappears when she fights. Ok now.

( Rewritten by Russanya (VixenArgentum) Rated T )

Anyhow. I had to get that out. Yay! Zero!Girls.

Once again...Happy New Year!

I hope everyone had a good Christmas. I know I did. I definitely didn't get up until 1 PM, spent a couple hours opening and cataloging packages with my family, and then after a delicious dinner going out to see The Good Shepherd which was a wonderful film. Anybody who knows me should know that I adore spy movies. It might seem rather out of character for me, but I love them dearly. This one was set in the Cold War era, so I adored it even more. If it's not Japanese...it better be Russian. Whether it is the land, the language, the liquor or *gasp* *sigh* the men, I have Asian and Russian leanings.

My flabbergasting gift of this year was a GPS navigation system for my car. I didn't quite know what to say when I unwrapped that one. My father's rationale was that being nearly 21 and living 1400 miles away from my home, I should be able to go wherever I wish.

That was not at all what I would have expected from my father. He always surprises me, but this was bigger than most. He is a man of very few words, but in what he chooses to say, show, and hide, I love him very much. He is the most free spirited person I have ever known.

And on the writing front.....Topsy Turvy 11 is now posted to ff.net and aff. I shall post to mediaminer shortly after I finish the review replies. Gah! That takes nearly as long as the writing sometimes.

Topsy Turvy Ch 12 is now at 7,000 words and counting. Damn it. The story just keeps coming and it wont stop!!!! Prepare for next chapter to be ridiculously long...but full of lots and lots and lots of plot.

Oh and the 2nd chapter of Symmetry is coalescing in my brain. Good grief. But I looooove being inspired!

Guess what guys... Topsy Turvy 11 will be out just in time for Christmas. Squeeeeee!!!!!! I just got the chapter back from Dembo, so if I cannot finish the editing and review replies tonight, I will post it tomorrow night.

And on another note, I got a question from a reader my last post asking for what Ryuukotsusei looked like. Now that I have Photoshop CS2 I can actually do fanart now. And of course, because I absolutely adoooooooore RyuuK/InuT, I did some art for them with my newly acquired art skills. (Believe me, it took me forever to learn how to use the damn program. I'm too stubborn to ask for help.)

( Who's the Fairest of them All? )

So yes. A very merry christmas indeed. I shall get to work!

Yeah, I filled this out, and something about it just made me laugh. The types of things that I would do to each person was picked at random, but strangely it fit everyone. Sorry for the spam post, but it entertained me

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In May I pulled lethalinjustice's hair (-5 points). Last Friday I gave silentstep a Dutch Oven (-10 points). In October I bought porn for silenceofheart (-10 points). Last month I turned fuzzmonkeys in for spitting (3 points). Last Saturday spartanguard18 and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-11 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, vixenofargentum

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

I suppose the icon I really should have used is this one... Watari! *squeeeeee*

Genetics test is over. I'm not sure how I did. I had a major brain burp on one of the questions. Seriously, I just forgot random stuff. *dies* I like science, it just doesn't like me at the moment very much. Pity.

But on the good side...I just fell in love with Yami no Matsuei again. And because last time I was in YnM heaven I didn't really have a livejournal...I can now get a bunch of awesome awesome icons. I just loooooove Muraki. He's evil, secretive, sinister, and fluffy as hell. Seriously, he's like "I murdered, raped, and tortured your best friend...*big smile and chibi face*...Tsuzuki! I LOVE YOU!" And then he wonders why Tsuzuki doesn't have any attraction to him. Even though that any time Muraki touches him, Tsuzuki doesn't try to get away...he swoons into it. Tsuzuki! You whore!

I may attempt another Oriya/Muraki fic. I don't know. I might even try to bend my brain a little and write an Oriya/Hisoka fic. We shall see.

On any note...I need a caffeinated beverage. Badly. *stalks off to the Sparty's downstairs*

Today was a day of brain rape. Lots of brain rape. Like a let-me-scoop-your-eye-out-with-a-spoon-and-fuck-you-in-the-orbital kind of brain rape. Genetics at 10 AM tomorrow. Is it sad that I am falling asleep at 11ish because my eyes/brain/mind cant take it anymore?!? I sooo can't wait until next semester. I hated most of the classes I had to take this semester, probably because I switched majors partway through the semester. And let me tell you...Biochemistry is NOT Linguistics. Linguistics is a lot more fun.

*sigh*

Brain rape.

My Mysticism and Magic course presentation on Numerology went well though. It really funny how it works. Generally I can guess most of my friends' life path numbers and expression numbers. It freaks them out and makes me laugh. It looks like I am going to 4.0 that course as well. Yay!

Anyhow...on an even better note, I just heard word from Demitria and she said that she will have Topsy Turvy 11 out and beta'd by Wednesday or Thursdayish. Hooray! Hopefully I can start writing Ch 12 on the train to Chicago on Friday. Four hours on a train will probably get me around six pages raw done. Most of my chapters are between 15 and 20 pages raw, although the number of pages per chapter has been climbing upwards as the story has continued. What the @#$#%! have I gotten myself into, lol.

I need sleep. *yawn*

With an escape from finals needed by my brain, I decided to show silentstep Ai no Kusabi, because she needs to get through the ummm....er....classics. And because I am excited for the fic by silenceofheart that is a Sess/Inu fic that is in the AnK universe. Squee!!!!

Hey, I took her through Fujimi Orchestra and I think next that I shall show her Level C. I wish I had someone to teach me this stuff when I was making my way through the BL community, lol.

I also watched the end of the second arc of Twelve Kingdoms today. And dare I say that Keiki is very very very very very very very very hot. His appearance is kind of like Sesshomaru...if if he turned into a unicorn instead of giant three legged dog (Sorry Sess, couldn't resist).

I finished Ch 11 of Topsy Turvy, but I haven't heard back from the beta as to whether or not she even did a readthrough for content. I am sure that she is dealing with finals this week as well. *sigh* I don't like to prod her about such things. For the wild/crazy/forward front that I pull off for most people, I tend to be a little on the shy side when it comes to things like that.

Ohhhh! And I finally got photoshop, so now I can start the art project that I have been dying to begin since the beginning of the school year. I really want to do a full deck of Inuyasha Tarot cards...inluding both of the Major and Minor Arcana. I figure if I start with the Minor Arcana...by the time that I reach the Major Arcana the cards will be more towards the masterpiece spectrum of quality. And I want to keep the symbolism for each card as strictly as possible (like what is shown on a Rider-Waite Deck if you are familiar with the cards at all)

I don't want to study. Did I mention that?!?

Fuck biochemistry!

I was going to use this journal for my own life/purposes. Alas...I think it shall instead be going towards my more geeky tendencies. Like my fanfiction, my fan art, my cosplay, and my very special doujinshi which I am working on with my cohort silentstep.

And If you do hear me bitching about something from RL, then guess what? You get to know me a little better.

Actually I think this will be going about half and half.

I just need to get through my final exams first without dying.

Wow. I thought this was really ironic.

You Are a Boxer Puppy

Energetic, playful and good with kids. You've also got a wild spirit that can't be trained or tamed.

anyhow...I shall be posting for real in here soon.